A listening heart

 FEBUARY 1st 2021:

This time last year my parents decided to come visit me at TLC children’s home after me being there for a few months. It was at this trip that I decided it would be best for me to travel home with them. My last day in Johannesburg was amazing crazy and filled with many wonderful people. I completed a 5k muddy run with thousands of other women and said goodbye to the adults and children I class as family. Little did I know life was gunna be very different when I returned back to England the following day. No one wanted to visit. It didn’t feel like I had come home I couldn’t see family and to be honest I felt lost. I didn’t know where life would take me next it was a scary and emotional time where I struggled to find the new normal. After a couple days searching the internet I found a job with a elderly care agency. This is when we went in to lockdown no 1. It was different I went from looking after tiny babies just starting out there lives with a future ahead of them to caring for vulnerable high risk clients who had already experienced most of their lives. It was great to get to know them, what they used to do and what made them happy. I loved working with every single one of my clients, they all taught me a lot about life but everyone has a time where there called to heaven and this was hard. I looked at these clients like my own grandparents, such wise people, I bonded with them, made friends made sure that the small bit of human contact they had a day was worth it. We smiled had giggles and shared many great moments. But during these moments my clients would look at me and ask what was wrong. They said when I mentioned South Africa I had a different smile. I was happier and they could tell. Many of my clients reminded me of times in there lives where they regretted not doing things. So they told me to do what made me happy even if it made them sad. I will forever cherish every moment spent with my clients and I won’t ever forget any of them.

So having said that after a hectic few weeks in England with work I decided to leave my job and do what makes me happy. I am following my heart and listening to God every step of the way. Without him none of this would have been possible. To all of my family finding this out on Facebook of all places I only booked my flights 48 hours before I left England. And to all of those that I have not yet seen in South Africa - surprise i’m back on African soil once again! Thankyou so much to my wonderful parents for teaching me to follow my heart I love you both millions and even though i miss you immensely I know that at this time this is where I’m meant to be ...